permanently away kind of o-0

[resolution]

So where do I begin? nom nom nom....hmm I'll make a contents thing to help myself .

1/My birthday (and other things o-o)
2/Boarding and what it's like
3/My crush
4/My inactivity and what I'm going to do about it
5/HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU ALL

1/My Birthday
So as some of you english peeps will know the 5th of November is the yearly celebration equivalent to the 4th of July so as usual my school held a big fireworks show for the town and stuff. Anyways some of my good friends in my boarding house have a few drinks stashed away somewhere and got drunk before the party. I wasn't with them at the time but when I went upstairs they were literally stumbling all over the place so naturally when one of them asked if I wanted to come with them I said yes. Unfortunately halfway to the large field on the opposite side of school I realized I'd forgotten my ticket and had to go back leaving them behind. Anyways I spent the fireworks night with some other friends and made my way back to the boarding house afterwards to watch X factor (which by the way is now pure crap ). Anyways they came back late, got shouted at and all the rest of my night was spent comforting them and stuff. They're good friends and just got carried away but this meant that they couldn't celebrate my birthday with me because they were grounded . We had had so much planned and I'm sorry I couldn't drop in to say hello because I was just so busy :/
2/Boarding and stuff
As some of you will know I've been boarding for a while now and I don't think I'll ever get that darn internet onto my laptop so I've kind of half given up :/. I think it's better for me though. I'm getting much more work done than before and since all the boarding house girls ever watch is crap (girls of the playboy mansion? really? What, you're going to RECORD it as well?) I'm not watching as much television as before. It's fun and I'm becoming a lot closer to a lot of my friends which brings me onto my next point
3/My Crush
is gorgeous, talented and nice . I might just be looking at his best points but who cares? He's friendly to me, loves his music, shares inside jokes with me and everything. I know it's stupid but I had to say it since none of my real life friends are capable of keeping a secret. Also they all kinda like him too and are jealous of our friendship o-o. I just feel like I can trust you guys with this
4/Ima inactive D:
I'm sorry but I've just had so much to do :/. This year so much new stuff has been happening and I'm also playing more hockey (My god I played two full length matches today. No words can describe how tired I am). Mock exams for GCSE's are next week and I need to revise. Also as some of you may know I'm moving to Beijing in January and the internet there is very restricted so the chances of me being able to access ANYTHING from there is low. I'm sorry but this might mean that these two months are the last where I might actually slightly be here. I'm sorry but at the moment real life is becoming really hectic and I don't have time .

Since I'm going to be inactive soon this means I'll also be stepping down from being a moderator too. I'm sure there are so many more of you who could do a much better job than me and it would be selfish and stupid of me to hold onto this position when I don't even do my job properly.

5/ I LOVE YOU ALL
When I was lonely you guys were here for me and I really think of you as good friends. I hate being so inactive and not being able to talk with you properly but I can't keep it up. I'll try talking to you guys while I still have the chance but please don't be angry at me for being so inactive. I just can't keep up

I feel like I've just written a mini essay :3