Post by →izzehkins← on Oct 29, 2009 15:38:28 GMT -6
okay, so obviously since i am pissing people off, i am going to make this official. i am not going to be gone forever, but i am taking a break from this site because of the amount of stress i am under.
i would appreciate it if my lack of activity and entries in the contests not be judged, because i consider not logging on on tuesday acceptable in light of the fact that i was having a stress related breakdown.
i consider the fact that i have not entered the contests acceptable in light of the fact that i am more concerned with getting an A on an essay in english, with a teacher who never tells us anything but that we suck, and gave me a seventy five percent last time.
and more concerned with the fact that i am trying to remember to take my medication, in the hopes that it will get me out of the worst time i have had since swearing not to ever hurt myself again, which, as it has been going on for five years, is a hard addiction to quit.
i am dealing with the fact that i have ended my oldest friendship because of his emotional abuse, and the fact that i can't even go on a fucking date without throwing up because i'm afraid, let alone have a healthy relationship, and i'm trying to keep the depression that's been eating me alive for six years from spilling over and hurting my friends, which it has been doing too often.
i quite honestly don't give a damn if i don't read the cambria monthly because i consider fighting the temptation to not break out the razor blades, and getting A's in my classes, despite my teachers seeming to actively try and prevent that from happening, and keeping myself together more important. i do have a life outside my computer, and i'm trying to keep it all going smoothly.
i will keep coming on, but i will not be roleplaying, and i would appreciate not being judged for that. believe it or not, i have far more stress than i can handle just dealing with my life, let alone with pressure to do things that i really can't right now.
i would appreciate it if my lack of activity and entries in the contests not be judged, because i consider not logging on on tuesday acceptable in light of the fact that i was having a stress related breakdown.
i consider the fact that i have not entered the contests acceptable in light of the fact that i am more concerned with getting an A on an essay in english, with a teacher who never tells us anything but that we suck, and gave me a seventy five percent last time.
and more concerned with the fact that i am trying to remember to take my medication, in the hopes that it will get me out of the worst time i have had since swearing not to ever hurt myself again, which, as it has been going on for five years, is a hard addiction to quit.
i am dealing with the fact that i have ended my oldest friendship because of his emotional abuse, and the fact that i can't even go on a fucking date without throwing up because i'm afraid, let alone have a healthy relationship, and i'm trying to keep the depression that's been eating me alive for six years from spilling over and hurting my friends, which it has been doing too often.
i quite honestly don't give a damn if i don't read the cambria monthly because i consider fighting the temptation to not break out the razor blades, and getting A's in my classes, despite my teachers seeming to actively try and prevent that from happening, and keeping myself together more important. i do have a life outside my computer, and i'm trying to keep it all going smoothly.
i will keep coming on, but i will not be roleplaying, and i would appreciate not being judged for that. believe it or not, i have far more stress than i can handle just dealing with my life, let alone with pressure to do things that i really can't right now.
