great blob of emo for english.

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Had to type up a page of anything for english class, so of course, I wrote about Roi. xD I thought it turned out pretty good so I'll share.


I can’t believe it. I’ve had you with me all my life, and now I’m witnessing you disappear before my own eyes. The world is against us. Shapeshifters like ourselves, the human race looks down on us, I know. That is why we couldn’t get a good job and a good house, we would be found out and we would be revealed. Ever since I was just a child, you told me this. To seclude myself and hide away all possible clues. We always have faults; no secret can be hidden forever. For me it was my eyes. Shapeshifters don’t have normal eyes and now I realize that. When I was small, I didn’t know my bright pink eyes were different than other childrens’. There is a lot I would give up to have normal brown or blue eyes, but the one thing I would never give up would be you, mother. You were the one person I knew I could trust with anything. I loved you, you were everything to me. Since birth you raised me to learn how to stay secret. You told me to keep my bangs overgrown so that they would cover my eyes, the solid proof of my secret. When I was small, I didn’t understand this. But as I watched members of our race shot down by humans, I understood. I listened to your every word from then on. But now that you’re leaving me, how will I learn to survive now? The humans are advancing in technology as they always have. They’re outsmarting us. The world is harsh, but you were cunning. You learned how to survive and counter their every advancement. If only I were more like you, I would be able to survive on your own. Why, mother, why?
You’re dying. I can’t believe it. As a mother, you would do anything for your child. You’ve sacrificed so much for me. We’re poor. What we find, steal, buy, beg for, and borrow is never enough for two people. But I didn’t know you were funneling everything into me. I understand why now. You knew I would worry. You knew how I care for others so much more than myself, especially ones I hold dear, like you, mother. Your single goal was to keep me alive. You were my most valuable thing in the world, and I was yours. You were slowly, silently paying the price for me. You sacrificed your own meals to feed me. You suffered through sickness to give me medicine. And now, that same hunger and sickness is taking you away from me, your only son.
You taught me so many things in your life. When I was only small, I watched you cook our meals. As I grew older, I learned to cook as well. Everything you cooked was delicious. It didn’t matter if we weren’t following a recipe. No matter what we had, you always found a way to throw it together into something delicious to fill our stomachs. Or at least mine. Whenever I asked why you weren’t eating you would always say you simply weren’t hungry and didn’t want to waste food. It was a lie, now I realize that. But lies don’t always hurt people. You never used anything to hurt me. Your lies hid your pain from me, you protected me. I think you knew that you wouldn’t last. I didn’t realize it, but you were teaching me things I needed to survive happily on my own. But I don’t think you had planned on leaving me so soon. You taught me how to clean the house, you even taught me to fix holes and tears in my clothes. You taught me so many things, and I hadn’t realized what you were subliminally preparing me for.
A life without you. I could have never imagined that you would be paying such a steep price for me. You were the only thing that made me happy. As long as you were with me, nothing else in the world mattered. Nobody else meant anything to me. I was happy by your side. You were everything. As every small child does, I used to believe I would have you forever. I used to believe we would be living in our little house forever, and we would be happy. As I grew, reality slowly crept in, tainting my innocence. I realized my ideas were wrong. I saw humans patrolling the streets for stray shapeshifters. If they weren’t careful, the humans would shoot them down on the spot. I hadn’t understood why until recently. I had just listened to what you told me; this was how life was for us. I grew, and as I did, I learned. I learned why the humans hated us. Why they try to eliminate us to this day. It wasn’t honestly hate that made them do such horrible things. It was a simple feeling everyone and everything shares. Nothing can escape that one feeling. No matter how dark your heart is, or how powerful you are, that feeling still resides in you. Inside all of us is fear. Fear is what possesses humans to try to eliminate us. Why do they fear us? I now know. And I feel stupid for not realizing it earlier, something so obvious. We are shapeshifters. With our clues hidden, we appear to be normal humans. However, we hold a potential inside of us. We possess the ability to take the form of animals. And animals are quite fearsome to humans. If we want to, we can take the shape of a grand golden lion to maul all standing before us. But for some, maybe our power isn’t the complete source of fear. Maybe it’s because we’re different. People avoid differences. Is it just prejudice that tells humans to take our lives, one by one? I know we are fearsome beings. We can slay masses by using the power we are born with. But there are many shapeshifters like ourselves. You and I, mother, we both know that neither of us would want to harm anyone without reason. Power corrupts those who are weak-minded. They do not know how to control their thirst for power, thirst for blood. Even now I do not understand why some of our kind first insisted on killing humans. The answer for today is obvious. The humans kill us shapeshifters for reasons that some predict, but no one is certain. Revenge is a powerful feeling. Even we thirst for it sometimes, mother. But we still prefer to be just, that is one of the things you taught me. You and I, we would never wish to kill anyone, shapeshifter or human. We stay secluded and private to prevent the deeds of those before us to cause our deaths. We try to blend in with the humans. That is how we must live. But it is a risky business, pretending to be average citizens. Mother, please rest in peace, do not worry for me. I will try to live amongst the humans and I will survive. I will make you proud. Mother, please believe in your son. I can make it. I will live. I will take my place as an average citizen, Roi Baltimore.