I just don't think I can keep up...

[NARCiNATOR!]

First off, I want to apologize to everyone. I know I've done some things and said some things that I really shouldn't have and I regret them.

I've been thinking over this for a long time but I haven't made any real decision until now.
I'm leaving Wasted Skies for good.

I know some people here don't like me but I'm not leaving just because someone said something or anything.

Mostly, I'm leaving because I just don't feel like I can keep up with you guys. I've never been the fastest with posting and I don't make the longest posts and I hardly ever enter cotests... I'm just not the best at writing.
You people here are amazing writers, I love stopping by to read your posts.
I'm not very good with ideas so 300 words can be a bit of a struggle for me, especially when I'm feeling pressured to reply within a reasonable timespan. I'm not saying having a 300-word requirement is bad, it's definitely a nice thing to have to make sure everyone stays active and it keeps the less serious role players out. It even brings out the best in everyone's writing, all of you make beautiful posts which are so full of life.
To be honest, forcing myself to squeeze out these posts has become more of a chore than a hobby. I'm just not finding enjoyment in it anymore.

It's definitely my fault for not entering contests. I know I'm lazy. If there was one more week in a month I would've entered every contest on the monthly issues. I know you spend forever thinking up things to add to the CM Locu and I feel terrible for not entering. I hope you guys attract lots more members in the future who are a lot more active than I am. xD You deserve it, this site is amazing. The plot is brilliant and you deserve an active community.

The other chunk of the reason I'm leaving is because last school year I failed several classes and I'm really falling behind. My parents are considering holding me back a year so I can make up classes. I really need to start being more serious in school and being distracted by a role playing site that I feel pressured to stay active in isn't good for a failing student like me. If I'm not held back, I'll be a junior still in freshman algebra and sophomore English and biology. I'll really have to bust my ass if I want to get through school with a good record. Life is just way too complicated for me to have time to stay active here. I've made an honest promise to myself to do better the rest of my time in school. I'm getting help with everything I don't understand and I want to have good grades like I used to so many years ago. I'm just not in the right position to also have Wasted Skies in my life.

The time I've spent here was amazing, I had so much fun playing Roi with everyone. Especially Rowan and Erin who had the biggest effect on my little emokid. ^^ Thanks to everyone who's role played with me, I love all of you. <3 And thanks for putting up with my slow posting, I know how annoying it is. I've met so many great people here and I hope that you continue talking with me if you can. You people are amazing, Wasted Skies has definitely attracted some of the best out there. The atmosphere feels so much more lively than most other role playing sites. I'm going to miss you all very much.

This doesn't mean I'm going to quit role playing altogether. Ever since I started role playing, I know it's something I can't just go and give up. I'll still be playing with Roi every once in a while on other sites, only at a more relaxed pace. If any of you feel the itch to role play with me again, message me on deviantart or gaia or any other site I'm on and we'll see if we can work something out, even if it'll be slow and my posts won't be long.
I'll try to swing by the cbox here every once in a while to say hi for people who miss me. ^^ But if you want to keep talking with me there's a few sites I'll still be on often.

deviantART: narcinator.deviantart.com/
Gaia Online: www.gaiaonline.com/profiles/19128209
Roi's Formspring: www.formspring.me/RoiMyBoi
iScribble username: narcissus

Well, it's been a great time here, you guys. I had so much fun and I love re-reading our threads together. I'm going to miss you all but this is for the best.


<33 Narci

[Otto]

Ay. :( Never got a chance to RP with you, but I shall miss you nonetheless. I get it, though--academics comes first, and I respect you for making that your priority.

I'll keep up with you on dA, a'right?

[→izzehkins←]

narrrrrrr<3

i shall miss roi, and of course i'll miss you. i can understand how it feels for roleplaying to become a chore rather than a hobby - i recently quit a site for the very same reason. good for you for putting academics first!

in any case, i hope you'll come around just to talk sometime if you like ^^ we will miss you~